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"Is
there any place else you would like to go while we're here?"
Bill asked as we drove away from the parking garage after a
rainy but fun day at California's Universal Studios.
"How
about Rodeo Drive?" I suggested, remembering that Julia
Roberts shopped there in the romantic comedy Pretty Woman.
"Ask
Brigette
if it's nearby," he replied, knowing how much I enjoyed the
movie when we saw it in the theatre during my junior year of
college.
I
typed the name of the street and city into Brigette (the
portable GPS Bill purchased just
before our trip) and waited for her to process my request.
"Brigette shows that Rodeo Drive is less than ten miles
away," I said as I pressed the Go button to set this
as our destination.
Following our electronic travel companion's instructions,
Bill merged onto US-101 as I scanned the horizon for the
exit we were to take in .8 miles.
"Look
girls!" I said as I scrambled for our digital camera to take
a picture of the green sign that was coming up fast on the
right side of the road.
"What
did it say?" Katie asked after the sign disappeared behind us before
she could read the words.
"Welcome to Hollywood," I replied as I pushed a button to
view photos and found, to my dismay, that the one I just took was
blurry.
We
drove on in silence as Bill searched for our exit and I
adjusted the camera settings, determined to be ready for the
next
photo opportunity. I wanted a picture of a Hollywood
sign because it reminded me, not of college, but of my corporate days.
It was
January 9th, 2006 and I had just commuted to the office for
my final day of work. I took in everything as I entered the north
lobby, knowing it would be the last time I walked through it as an employee.
While
scanning the room, an unusually large group of individuals
caught my attention. They were dressed for success in
their best suits and appeared to be waiting for a meeting.
Why so
many?
I wondered, counting as I walked toward them.
Twenty-eight, twenty-nine ...
Before
I could finish, a woman asked the group to circle around her
as she described the layout of the building.
They're new-hires,
I said to myself with an understanding smile. Just
like I was when I reported for my first day of work more than
fourteen years ago.
And
now I'm here for my last, I added as I reached the
elevator and pushed the UP button.
It was
an
end
that began a year earlier when I first drove to the office
to resign. I
had been waiting for the right time to quit for two years.
Finally circumstances allowed it, my husband
supported it, and I walked into my manager's office to find
that I was ...
unable to do it.
"Why
did you want to meet with me on one of your days off?" my
manager asked.
"I
came to give my notice but now I'm having second thoughts,"
I admitted. "What if I reduce my work schedule to one day a week
instead?"
I was
secretly hoping that management would not agree to such an
unusual request.
If they let me go, I reasoned, then my career as a writer
is meant to be.
This
passive approach to pursuing God's will reminds me of what John Ortberg
wrote in his book, The Life You've Always Wanted, when
he told about a man who "decided not to
seek a job he was interested in, on the grounds that it
would be a sign of God's will if he got the job without
trying."
"The
problem with this line or reasoning," John continued, "is
that it assumes that whatever happens as a result of our
passivity is God's will. This is obviously not true."
(p. 149)
The
apostle James reached the same conclusion when he asked, "What
good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but
has no deeds?" (James 2:14a)
James went on
to say that "faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by
action, is dead." (James 2:17b)
It
took nearly a year for me to see that doing God's will might
require the use of my own, and that waiting is not a passive
activity where we are acted upon, instead of acting on the
longings God has placed in our hearts.
What
makes us spend so much time waiting that we forget about the
importance of doing? If faith is being sure of what we hope
for and certain of what we do not see,[1]
shouldn't that certainty result in an accountability for
acting on what we believe?
Maybe
that's why I enjoyed the movie Pretty Woman so much
that it came to mind more than fifteen years later as I
watched the new employees begin their tour (and their
tenure) with the company.
I
could tell early on that Julia Roberts' character was sure there was something better for her outside of her
current profession—so certain that she declined an offer
that would get her off the street, hoping instead to be
swept off her feet.
That's our challenge as well, I decided as the elevator
doors opened and I made my way inside, to let go of what
is, when it's standing in the way of what could be.
That's
what I was about to do as I prepared to turn in my
computer, trusting that the skills I had learned in my
current job would be put to good use in my next one as a
writer.
Welcome to Hollywood, I thought to myself while glancing one
more time at the new-hires as the elevator doors closed. Everybody has a dream. What's your dream?
"Is
that our exit?" Bill asked, bringing my thoughts back to the
present.
"It
is," I replied.
"And there's another Hollywood sign!" I
added excitedly before turning on my camera and snapping the
photo.
As
Bill took the off ramp, I pressed the playback button to
find the picture as clear as the meaning behind it. If life is a journey—our journey—it should be us
who does the moving. Only when we stop waiting for
answers to come to us, can we come upon them as we travel
along the road God is calling us to follow.

Everybody's got a dream. What's your dream?
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