It
took a while but I finally realized that, while John’s role
was to prepare the way for the Lord,[ii]
ours is to reflect it. God doesn’t call us to lead people
with lectures; he wants us to serve them in love. We know
this from 1 Peter 4:10 where we read that each “one should
use whatever gift he has received to serve others,
faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms.”
God’s
grace was nowhere in the message delivered by the men
holding the protest signs. It’s like there was a line
between being holy and holier-than-thou and, by crossing it,
they pushed away the very people they were trying to reach.
God
wants us to get close to other sinners, not close the book
on them, I thought to myself as I wrote down my thoughts
while waiting for the race to start. Knowing that these
pious picketers were in direct violation of Colossians
4:6—which insists that our words be full of grace and
seasoned with salt—made me wonder what Jesus would say if he
had been standing beside the evangelists.
Even
though the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, I
found it hard to believe that He would condone using scare
tactics to reach out to sinners. God’s love, not fear, opened my eyes to the gospel. Knowing that it was not my
mistakes, but being loved in spite of them that led me to
Jesus makes me think that He’d have turned, not to the fans,
but to the religious fanatics to offer this advice: “As long as you keep
scaring people away, you’ll never lead them to me.”
For
most of his adult life, Denver Moore scared people away as
he did what he had to do to survive. One of the things he
had to do was fight people who tried to steal his personal
possessions; and Hall drew me back to the present as he talked about the
day he saw one of these brawls firsthand. Ron prefaced his
story by sharing a conversation he had with his wife a short
time before.
“Ron,
I had a dream last night,” Debra announced.
“So
what was it about?” he asked.
“I saw
the face of a man. He is a poor man. He’s a homeless man
and he is a wise man,” Debra said, “and by his wisdom, he’s
going to save our city. Our city’s going to be changed.”
“And
we need to find him,” she added.
“You
really—you saw a man?”
“I saw
his face,” she stated, “and I want you to go with me and
help me find him in the inner city.”
Reluctantly, Ron went with his wife into Fort Worth to look
for the man of her dreams. They also began serving at the Union
Gospel Mission. It was there that Ron witnessed Denver’s
scuffle over a stolen pair of shoes.
“As
the fight was winding down,” Ron told attendees, “there was one
man left standing and he was in some raggedy old britches.
And he had no shoes, no shirt, and he was screaming, ‘I’m
going to kill whoever done it! Whoever stole my shoes, I’m gonna kill him!’”
Ron
went on to explain how his wife started jumping up and down
“like a cheerleader on the sidelines of football games whose
team has just scored the winning touchdown.”
“That’s him! That’s him!” she cried.
“That’s who?” Ron asked.
“That’s the man I had the dream about.”
“Which
one?” Ron probed as he glanced fearfully at Denver. “Him?”
“Yes,”
she confirmed. “And I think God told me that you have to be
his friend.”
I can
imagine how shocking these words must have been for Ron
to hear; and I can guess that I would have felt the
same hesitation that caused him to reply: “Debra, I was not at that meeting you had with
God.”
Ron
did eventually become friends with Denver and, as I listened to the
divine circumstances that brought these two men together,
I had to ask: Was I judging Denver in the same way
that the
street evangelists had judged me?
What this homeless-man-turned-author went through and how
God delivered him from his circumstances made it easy to
believe that Denver
preached, not with a holier-than-thou attitude, but out of
gratitude for how God had worked in his life. Like the
lectures of my childhood,
the words I had taken
offense to had nothing to do with me at all; and I wondered
how many other times my past got in the way of
accurately perceiving people in the present.
As
difficult as it was to admit, I had a long way to
go if I wanted to be like Ron’s wife, who saw through
Denver’s poor behavior and fearlessly walked up to him
just days after the fight to say:
“You are not a bad man. God has a calling on your life and
you’re going to live to see it.”
Denver
wrote about this experience on pages 92 and 93 of Same Kind of
Different as Me when he said: “She was the first
person I’d met in a long time that wadn’t scared of me.
Seemed like to me she had spiritual eyes: She could see
right through my skin to who I was on the inside.”
How
easy it is to forget that God has a plan for everyone—the penniless
and pious included. Part of the plan is realizing that people can do the wrong things for the
right reasons. When they do, God calls us to befriend, not
belittle them, as we show that we're not so different . .
. after all.
Quotes
to Grow On
“ever person that looks like a enemy on the outside
ain’t necessarily one on the inside. We all has more in
common than we think.”
Denver Moore, Same Kind of Different As Me, p.
193
“I
have learned that even with my $500 European-designer
bifocals, I cannot see into a person’s heart to know his
spiritual condition. All I can do is tell the jagged tale of
my own spiritual journey and declare that my life has been
the better for having followed Christ.”
Ron
Hall, Same Kind of Different As Me, p. 61